My Journey

“If you are going through hell, keep going.”  —  Winston Churchill

I’ve described this blog as “my continuous journey to find my self.”  Life throws us unexpected changes, which often makes us change course.  That’s why the journey is continuous.  Just when I thought I had figured out my path, something drastic changed.  So, I am currently “in between paths” again.

Several years ago, I was working for a Fortune 100 company with a great job, a great career and lots of responsibility.  For my age, I was doing well and hoped this would be my career path.  I had worked nonstop for many years and took on heavy loads to get there.  However, I was oblivious to the stress that had been gradually building over the years.  I was a train wreck waiting to happen.  I became exhausted regularly, but I had also survived many tough situations and kept on going…kept on going…kept on going going…until one day I felt like I had run head-on into a brick wall!  My body dropped to the floor and couldn’t move!  It  yelled, “no more!” and shut down.  I was stuck to the floor and needed help getting up.  Eventually, my doctor told me what I never wanted to hear – that I had to choose between my health and my job.  I remember very vividly hearing him say, “Bad things happen to people who don’t listen to their bodies.”  He said I needed to make a significant change and live a more balanced life if I wanted to get better.

So, I was forced to redefine myself.  I struggled for a while because the work life I knew no longer existed.  What was I to do?  Well, I cut back to part-time work.  I also learned how to cook beyond ordinary dishes, garden and got involved in lots of volunteer work.  I never fully accepted that I had to leave my career, but I was adjusting to my new life and enjoying it more.

Until whamo!  Something drastic changed again.

Along the road to recovery, other debilitating medical problems surfaced, which remain undiagnosed to this day.  Several months of doctor visits, ER visits, tests, prescription drugs, and hospital stays couldn’t provide any explanations.  Eventually, I was told by many doctors that there was nothing more they could do for me.  That answer was unacceptable to me, but I had run out of options…that is, until my counselor encouraged me to try acupuncture and gave me the name and phone number of his acupuncturist.  He said that Western medicine might no longer be the answer for me and to give alternative medicine a try.  Because of a lack of information, I didn’t know how acupuncture could help.  I was skeptical, but had nothing to lose and made my first appointment.  I’m really glad I did!  Today I have an excellent treatment team who focus more on alternative, oriental, and holistic medicine.

So again, I am on another path to redefine my self.  What will that be?  Only time will tell.

Thank you for sharing this journey with me.

11 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. sandy
    Sep 21, 2011 @ 14:58:18

    So very interesting! My sisters and I have have auto-immune issues. I seem to have followed a similar path to yours. Let me tell you, I am definitely doing much better in the past few years.


  2. Lindy Lee
    Nov 14, 2011 @ 06:31:38

    Art, under the tutelage of the Muse, has healing properties unavailable to medicine…


  3. latebloomerbuds
    Nov 27, 2011 @ 06:18:26

    I am so happy to hear you found something that worked for you. You are an amazing human being Fergiemoto! I am glad to make your acquaintance. Margie


  4. firasz
    Dec 11, 2011 @ 13:34:44

    I find it very interesting. Keep going..keep going…on and on…


  5. siggiofmaine
    Dec 29, 2011 @ 12:59:27

    This is very interesting. I see we live on opposite coasts of the USA. I have lived in several US states, Japan and Puerto Rico (first husband in the Navy).

    Am looking forward to following your life’s journey.

    Siggi in Downeast Maine


  6. barbara
    Jan 01, 2012 @ 01:14:51

    I found this sight and i am intrigued
    I am at a crossroads of some sort
    i will come again
    happy new year/blessings…B


  7. yoshizen
    Jan 04, 2012 @ 11:36:33

    If this is not too intrusive and if I may say still, I can see who you are.
    I’ve seen your all blog here and there and your photos another creations etc.
    —— ? ? ? Simply you are a perfectionist and further wanted to be the Perfectionist. = still pushing and pushing.
    Land scape around the truck has changed a bit time to time and some bump here and there still, you are in the same truck 😀
    If you like to change, you got to off the truck —— sit alongside of it and watch other train running 😀
    Hi-speed train may reach Nirvana a bit quicker though, to a person who is just sitting a side of the truck still get Nirvana = its mean, mean time the person can have more mess in the life = having more mess would be more interesting 😀
    (Don’t you agree ? ) Ha ha ha 😀


  8. richardhustonart
    Feb 09, 2012 @ 00:28:58

    First I would like to thank you for liking my blog…I followed the link from Creativity Aroused (which I like ) and ended up here. I too am dealing a mysterious pain and you are a great example of trying to deal… thanks Richard


  9. buckwheatsrisk
    Mar 27, 2012 @ 19:44:52

    sorry that you were hit so hard, glad you are finding some help somewhere!


  10. Indira
    Jun 12, 2012 @ 11:57:07

    I can relate to you, and that’s why I always say to everyone to take care of their body, it never forgives you if you don’t care for it. Long 50 years suffering has teach me. Take rest before you get tired,always follow this.Meditation also helps.


  11. Withywindle Nature
    Jun 26, 2012 @ 18:33:25

    You have a powerful and enlightening story – thank you for sharing in your journey. Best of luck in your continuing efforts to find healing.

    Great Churchill quote, by the way…


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